Day 3, Can I break my own barriers?

I am finding my inner strength and I forgot I had it. I can't believe I can wake up in the 5's o'clocks and start a day of adrenaline pumped up exercise. Who would have thunk it? Well I did start with a 3.75 mile bike and 1 mile eliptical, machines I had never used before then went out on a 4.5 mile hike to Third Ravine which was hard due to the rocks and I worried I would break my ankle any minute and need a helicopter ride out, since I am not yet small enough to be carried out successfully. All this on only 283 calories.

The gang took this shot in a real bat cave,

no bats seen but I do feel like I could fight

evil doers. The hike was evil going up the bowl but I will do it again.

Then onto a circuit class, which was awesome using weight machines and cardio. My Achilles started hurting pretty bad last night and actually felt like an arrow through it. Weird sounds mythical but was very real. The cardio aggravates it but I plod on, just to wait for a new pain to take the place of the old one.

The dreaded pool followed, I think its the most challenging since I am only a Pisces by sign and I keep swallowing the salt water which turns out to be sweat water.

My favorite part of the day was kickboxing and I think I needed to knock some walls down maybe a few barriers I have put up myself. I was loving this, okay not during the whole thing but my after glow was hot. Then onto mountain training which killed in a good way when it was over I went3.2 miles at up to 5.2 mph. I actually have come to enjoy the dizziness after the big pushes up hills as a new drug.

I completed this day on only 1093 calories.

We took a trip to Target tonight and I saw 2 real live poligymists, prarrie outfits and bad buns and knew they may want recruit me after my 2 weeks are over as a hot new wife....only in Utah, sorry no picture of them but I was excited.

I will let you know about my new adventures tomorrow and must say this a incredible group of people. Oh and to Jerica's mom, she is doing great.

Day 2 I can push harder.

I was on top of the world today, I pushed myself so hard and didn't break, we will have to see if I can get out of bed tomorrow.

Started the day with a 1.7 mile run on treadmill at 6am since I could barely move and thought I would die for the rest of the day during the hike. Then my toast and fruit smoothie to tide me over for the hard morning to come.

I did a 5 mile hike to Chuckwalla its so beautiful but cold, the great pictures showing the scenery suck because it was so cold you can see my nipples in every stinkn picture. Im afraid to post one but I might as I write this...

I had a great streach class and almost fell asleep since it was the first time I had to stop all day. Then during my 15 minute break between "events" ie classes, I called Ray, he has only been getting phone calls while I am going to the bathroom, again its the only time I get to stop during the day. We drink so much water here so we get an excuse just to go sit down for a minute on the toilet. It really is a "rest"room here.

Then come the pool which still sounds so nice, but no, it is like treading water and today they added weight inthe pool "what the heck" as Byron would say.

Then a cardio interval class I ran another 2.9 miles at 6mph on the treadmill. Then dinner and a lecture. All of this was done on 1223 calories, I feel like a pig. Ha

Byron wants to know when I am coming home and its only day 2 ugh thats the breaking point of my day not any of the physical stuff, but I will push on and look at the beautiful flowers Annemarie and Rob sent and I will start it all over again.

Day 1 Rude awakening to my body.

Wow what a day Look at me all niave and bright eyed. I had no idea what that 6am picture would foretell. I did a hike today the infamous "stop sign hike" and I will never look at a stop sign the same.I think I love them now. It was a 4.4mile ascend up to 4000 with snow and all on the ground. I would have like to be done but you must climb down.. oh that part. I went about 2 1/2 miles down and ran the last so we could make the van back to camp. I met a nice girl that helped push my envelope to the brink of tearing.

Right after that I did a mountain class where you are on a treadmill and go faster ever 5 minute and I went another 2.7 miles. Then to the pool in extreamly bitter cold wind for aerobics. It was not easy at all and drowning started sounded like a good out. Then to circuit training which was fun but hard. Then the finale was a step class and all we did were squats with weights, who thinks of this? I did my whole day on a mere 1093 calories.

I am so sore, I feel muscles I don't remember having, I think I feel my uterus aching and in pain from today, it might be my fallopian tube, I just dont know ?I will sleep and start the day over tomorrow at 5:40am.

My roommate is great we stayed up til midnight talking last night and she didn't even stumble in drunk after a day in Vegas. She has clued me in here and I will make t he most out of this place and become a better me through all this hard work that is kicking my butt off, I am not loving the "during" part of exercise but I will love the after. This is now what I am obligated to do for my health.

Chow for now..oh I can't stop thinking of food though its great here, I'll try and take a picture of it before I scarf it down tomorrow.

Arrival day at the ranchand intro to freaking out 101

Okay I have arrived safely at Fitness Ridge and was not escorted off Southwest for needing 2 seats due to my own seat. Whew dodged one bullet.
I am in my room and have yet to meet my roomie but I see no breathing apperatice for her sleep apnea that I have just imagined for her. Whew another bullet dodged.
I am so nerveous that I heard nothing at orientation I think it was the teacher from the old Charlie Brown episodes. I was only thinking of how Ray will be up all night or will he? He can't seem to hear the baby cry when I am home HUMMM it might seem quiet to him tonight. I will no doubtly sleep like an baby should.
Poor roomie I may have to check her and see if she needs a diaper change and give her a bottle and then burp her. I think I have created a monster and I am sure she will be great, I hear she is in Vegas and only good shit happens there. I hope she smuggles in some vino and we can break bread together and become fast friends. Thats right no wine or bread...hope the friend thing pans out. I am looking forward to it.
Tomoorow starts at 6am. more to fallover..opps follow.

Ready or not...

Today I made the leap in to my 40s, it just can't be. That is a huge number beacause thats the amount my Dr told me to lose so I know firsthand that it is a huge almost unreachable number. Well I am here and it feels fine..actually I now feel slightly seasoned with a newfound wisdom that only comes from aging like my favorite cheeses peppered with mold on a water cracker or soft bread, or a nice red wine that has mellowed in oak. This birthday week was the perfect length thanks to great people that surround me, I was allowed to gradually accept this 10th anniversary of my 30th birthday with ease. Thank you my friends.



I "leaf" (ok leave) in 2 sleeps to the Biggest Loser resort. I made my reservations Dec 1st at 165 pounds and a mere 2 feet tall...okay I am just over 5 foot, but then built quite round. I now am 150 pounds and no taller. So I must grow another 5 inches in height to be normal..ie. less obese and less than 30 BMI. AHH so here it is a picture that shows my tummy. I do plan on an after shot with much smaller leaves if I attain favorable results. So the pinapples on my ass did not make the cut for the before shot and I am mildly disappointed.

I know I am on the right road as my youngest sons first words are "mama" and my oldest son turns 4 tomorrow and I just 4 decades older than that begin to work on me with a little more devotion so I can become a little less rounded and a little more well rounded.

A Me Day

Here is my big hill that I must stroller Byron and Pierce up and down. It doesn't look like much but I have to get sea level and then accend to Tsunami free zone where I live. Ugh it is even hard for my car to drive up.

Byron and Pierce this morning on the way to school, 32 lbs for stroller, 33 lbs for Byron and 21 lbs for Pierce.

This is Tracy and Kim taking me and my new straight hair out to 40th birthday dinner last night(a birthday hairdo thanks to Rebecca at Pure salon I love it love it) We had a great night and I ate like a pig since in a few days food and wine will be obsolete. These pictures are from my new super cool camera from them so I can blog properly. I will get the hang of this.

The before picture has been taken and will post in a day or so....stats to follow. Last nights cheese and chocolate fondue will not be seen on my thighs yet. 5 sleeps until I leave. 4 sleeps until Byrons 4th birthday party withh 9 foot long snake and spiders and bugs EWWW.

Huge props to my dear husband who planned successfully a suprise 40th birthday for me on Sat with about 40 dear friends that can keep a secret damn well. I had the headache the next day to prove it was a smash. Thank you all and I really am enjoying this aging thing. I am thinking the me I am suppose to be might still be a party animal. I need to keep that in check. Thank you all.

Mirror Mirror on the wall...

I was starting to feel pretty good about myself then of course as my arrogance grows something or someone thumps me onthe head. Wow yesterday someone asked me if was was pregnant. ACKKKK.Actually it was worse than that he patted me on my tummy...okay my food baby. I was so taken aback that I just need a good and darn near vile rebuttle for these situations. But I warm my readers never ask a women if she is pregnant, I expect an Ob/Gyn DR to ask why Im there and assume its my pubic hairs showing and not a baby crowning. Never ask,if you don't know. AHH I feel better, did it sem like I was yelling?
Well I have 8 more sleeps until I arrive at the ranch and I feel ready since my baby Pierce has just slept through the night for the first time ever I am so proud, his timing is perfect for my poor husband. We also had slumber party last night, well Byron had his friend Max over and Ray called at one point and said "HELP" I do think its becoming crystal clear the fear of single dad weeks ahead. He had one boy with a bloody nose one pooped his pants and another poked with a stick inthe neck. Sounds like his hands were tied behind his back. Weird because I got home and everything seemed fine. Poor Ray.